NOTE: There's a lot of topics I wanted to discuss so I'm breaking them down. (In no particular order.)
I tried doing my make up again today. I got this new microtip eyeliner and I almost had a panic attack trying to figure out how to use it on my left eye.
You know what's harder to do then your make up...doing your make up BLIND.
Because that's what I am legally blind without my glasses and basically I'm forest gumping my make up on without my glasses. The foundation part is easier because I just have to make sure I blend okay. It's the eyeliner, eyeshadow, and mascara parts that just make me want to explode. I poked my eye about two times today becayse my depth perception is way off without my glasses. But I'm making do.
Sure it isn't perfect, but at least I tried. And that's why I'm going to keep on trying until I can do my make up seemlessly. Not exactly sure when that will be but it's a work in progress. Practice makes perfect.
Now you might say, if you hate it so much, why do you even do it? - answer: because I want to...try at least. I feel pretty with or without it on but sometimes I want to doll myself up you know. Just because. No other reason really.
Right now I'm looking at chancho eating his hay and he looks so cute. Can't believe he's around 7 years old right now. I don't want to think about him passing any time soon. No more bunnies for me though. I love him to death but he's a lot of work. And after loosing Loki, I don't think I wanna go through it another time after Chancho. So he's my last bunny.
Me, my brother, his wife, Aunty Evonne, Aunty, Uncle, and 2 cousins are all going to New York in April. I'm really looking forward to it. We're going to go to the empire state building, Top of the Rock building, bus ride, boat ride, 9/11 museum, natural history museum, etc. I can't wait. I think it will be good to get away for a little bit.
My Uncle John passed away a few weeks ago. It was really hard on all of us. The fact that we didn't get to say goodbye hurts. I hate to see my mom hurting so much. I feel like I'm an empathetic cryer too so I'm not looking forward to his funeral next weekend. I decided to say a few words but I hope I can get through it without crying too much. I know it's okay to cry especially at a funeral and especially when that person meant a lot to you. But I want to be able to get through it you know?.